This is Just to say.....

This is just to say
Who do you think you are?
Behind that smile you are just another self involved user
You stole my innocence and made me compromise who I am.

But it’s ok, I wish u the best
I hope you find a lover but not a friend
Forgive me

But I have to ask you
Before you made me feel like you betrayed me
Why dint you just tell me that it was your boyfriend I kissed last night.

Long since I felt so lonely....
Long since I cried like a 2 yr old...
Long since I missed people who came in my life n went their own way....
Long since I realized how I was not ME anymore....

I dont know when I changed, how I changed, what happened to me....
This is not how I was....
Where did I lost my self????

I want to go back to that same life....
I want to be a baby again....
Be in arms of everyone....
Be an apple of eye for every person....
Be their lucky charm....

Dont know what I did so wrong....
That all my happiness just walked out of life....
Each day took a smile away....
Tears is all what is left....
It is getting dry every day....
n before anyone realizes it will be over....

There will be no ME....

There will be something missing in someone's life....
Is that TRUE????
Am I important for anyone????
If so then why do people make me feel there is no point of my life....

Am I just supposed to be an unlucky charm for every one now????
I wanna make every person I know, HAPPY
Is that my fault????
Is giving happiness taking away your own????
Is it losing your ownself????

Is that what life is about????

A Meaningful Theory!!!!!!!!!

A Meaningful Theory...
Message: When things in your life seem almost too
much
to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough,
remember the mayonnaise jar... and the coffee...
A professor stood before his philosophy class
and
had some items in front of him.


When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a
very large and empty mayonnaise jar and
proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then
asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed
that it was.


The professor then picked up a box of pebbles
and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar
lightly, the pebbles rolled into the open areas
between the golf balls. He then asked the students
again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.


The professor next picked up a box of sand and
poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled
up everything else. He asked once more if the
jar was full. The students responded with a
unanimous "yes".


The professor then produced two cups of coffee
from under the table and poured the entire
contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty
space between the sand. The students laughed.


"Now" said the professor, as the laughter
subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar
represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things - your
family, your children, your health, your friends and
your favorite passions - things that if everything
else was lost and only they remained, your life
would still be full.


The pebbles are the other things that matter
like your job, your house and your car. The sand is
everything else - the small stuff.


"If you put the sand into the jar first," he
continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the
golf balls. The same goes for life", "If you spend all
your time and energy on the small stuff, you will
never have room for the things that are important
to
you".


Pay attention to the things that are critical to your
happiness. Play with your children. Take time
to get medical checkups. Take your partner out
to diner. Play another 18, there will always be time
to clean the house and fix the disposal.


"Take care of the golf balls first, the things that
really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just
sand."


One of the students raised her hand and
inquired what the coffee represented. The
professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes
to show you that no matter how full your life
may seem, there's always room for a couple of
cups of coffee with a friend."

everything must be set in a perfect way,,

lets treasure our life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God bless!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To those who believe in LOVE only!!

"THE TRUTH ABOUT LOVE"

somebody told me once that:
"finding d right person is very hard and very
wrong...it is best 2 be d right person 4 d 1 u love nd
start from der...u'll alwys end up disappointed when
u set standards nd define a "right person" 4 u...nd
don't rush things co'z somewhere, somehow God
is preparing somebody 4 u".

Don't be in a hury 2 get into a relationship bcoz u
can never find love if u insist dat u r already into it.
Try 2 find time 2 really understand ur real feelings,
to know hu u really are.You're right, der's no such
thing as a perfect relationship, but der's a
compatible partnership dat goes along with it. If u
already knew dat u are too big to fit into a small
sized t-shirt, dont give it a try, u'll probably break it
nd pay 4 d damages u have made.

If u knew nd felt dat d relationship will not last,
don'y go deeper into it, u'll just suffer from
consequences nd live like hell 4 d rest of ur life. It's
really hard 2 say gudbye though, but u can't make
it any better pretending u still have d same
feelings. Try 2 let go nd give urself a chance 2 live
life 2 d fullest. Give urself a chance 2 grow nd give
ur heart a much needed attention, then u will find
dat u have mde d right decision nd u made it all by
urself...

We call it love when we can't leave someone nd
see them crying as we try 2 let go, we r wrong, it's
just pity!!!. We call it love when were 2 attached nd
think dat loosing d one we love will somehow make
us weak nd unable 2 face d storms of life, we
misunderstood, it's just dat we're too much
dependent to them. We call it love when we give
our whole life to them, d wholeness of us nd
imagined dat if they leave.no one would accept us
nd our past, we are mistaken, it's just
insecurity.......

But no matter what d definition is, the truth still
remains that LOVE isn't something u can beg or
buy......... It is REAL and EXISTING........
You can't touch it but u can feel it in ur heart.

" IT CAN MAKE YOU THE HAPPIEST SOUL IN
HEAVEN, BUT DON'T FORGET THAT IT CAN
ALSO MAKE YOU THE MOST MISERABLE
PERSON IN THE WHOLE GALAXY"

My Life!!!

i can do ny thing to see that smile on her face... she means everythin to me... ill die thousand times just for her but i wont let nythin happen to her... I Love u Baby!!!

World War 2 Memorial

Ok this post will be for arjun

Arjun these r some of the pics I took at the world war 2 memorial in DC I hope u like them

Questions???

R u crazy for someone??? Can u do nythin for that one???

wat wud ur answer be: may be, yes, no....

i guess that wud be my answer too but all i wanna know rite now is that y does this happen???

y does a person gets crazy for someone else how does that other person becomes your life???

these are some questions which are always left unanswered...

but i guess somethin which comepletes them is that special someone...

n i think this is true coz i feel it after that someone came into my life...

for me at this point it feels like my life starts with him n ends with him...

i kno it sounds crazy but hey that is wat i am totallyyyyy crazy but i am lovin this craziness rite now...

i kno my questions will never be answered not even by that special someone but all i want is to be with him forever...

some words

Y Do u Always get Hurt in Love????

I have so many reasons to say this
But I am never able to tell you on my own
I know you know that I love you
I told you myself
But you never talk to me
You always ignore me
I tried to find the reason for you ignoring me
But you never gave me a reason
You talk to someone else
I just look at you once and go away
Thinking that maybe you are trying to tease me
But you're not, you're hurting me
I care about you so much that sometimes
I even forget of myself while thinking of you
Why don't you talk to me
Just give me the reason once
I don't love you because you are too hot to handle,
But because you are everything I ever wanted in my life
For me knowing you is loving you
I want to be with you all the time
I want to do anything that you want me to do for you
I want to spend my whole life with you
I want you because you are everything for me
Everything
I can't even type anything today about what I saw and heard about you today
I love you
and I want you
I can wait for you all my life but if you have someone in your life then how can I stay alone
So come and get me
But if it is too late then you don't know what you're missing
And if you miss it you will never be able to get it again.
Never.

Sis I Need U!!! :(

A Girl who became my best friend and

then…

Dedicated to: -

Anu,

my girl, for me she is the only person whom I can rely on.

Like all the regular days, today, also I went to school and had fun over there but ya classes were boring. I came back home and got ready for my tuitions. I and my brother used to go to same place for tuitions the only difference was that he was in 8^th grade and I was 10^th. So we always used to go together and after reaching there used to go to the rooms in which we were supposed to be. I reached the room where I had my class and as usual the moment I entered the room all the guys were looking at me like I am a fairy or what. I used to feel so odd when I joined the tuition I was the only girl in there at that time but now I am used to it. And then after a few minutes our teacher said “Read this lesson and ask me if you have any problems.” We all were sitting there and pretending that we are reading but we all were chatting none of us was serious at that time and then a girl entered that room with her mom and they started talking to our teacher so that she can join our class. I took a quick glance of her, she was wearing a purple shirt and a blue bib jeans. And then all the guys started passing comments which they usually did when any girl joined the class they never did it when I joined the class coz I was the first girl there and I joined the class from the very first day. They always used to tell those comments to me and I used to laugh at them. And then one of the guys said “Hey, she can’t stop her jean from falling down that is why she is wearing the one which can hold for jeans from her shoulders so that it does not comes down.” And I laughed at it. But then as the comments where going on I paid attention to her and ignored the comments. She looked pretty but she would look much better if she gets her teeth fixed with the help of braces. But she still is pretty. I had all this stuff in my thoughts when I was looking at her. And then I just got distracted by Pallavi, she said “Hey why are you not laughing at the comments” and I said “Sorry, I dint heard the comments.” And then there was another comment I don’t remember what the comment was but I said “Shut up you guys.” I was feeling bad for her and when ever I used to hear any comment for her I used to say shut up. Pallavi was staring at me and then she said “what’s wrong with you? You are always included in the comments but today you are saying shut up why what happened?” I said “Nothing, I am cool.” Our teacher introduced her to us by saying “Class, this is a new student and her name is Anuradha.” And he asked her to come and join the girls and be comfortable. And then one of the boys said “Anuradha Porwal” and I bursted into laughter. I think she felt bad but I was not laughing at her, I was laughing at that singer god she sounds so crazy the way she looks and the way she sings and her name it sounds really crazy. She came and sat next to Pallavi I said Hi! To her and so did she and the she said “you can call me Anu.” I said “and you can call me Meha.” Pallavi and Anu kept talking to each other for the whole class time and I was neither studying nor talking I guess I was lost in thoughts and I don’t even remember what thoughts I was in. I felt like Anu was an angel for me. I never felt in that way for any girl earlier but this time I don’t know what that was. I think I was the only person in the tuition at that time who thought that she was pretty coz if someone else did then they would be looking at her but no one was, everybody was busy chatting. And then the tuition ended and we all went back home. And then I kept on seeing her in tuition everyday and we both used to talk to each other now but not that much as she and Pallavi would. And then gradually we both became friends, when she joined the class she was too close to Pallavi but now she was much closer to me than she was to Pallavi. We both became Best Friends. We used to share everything about our life with each other there was not even a single topic about my life which she dint knew about. She used to come to my home before going to the tuition and then we both used to go together. We used to be chatting all the time when we were not together we both used to chat on phone. We hardly used to study when we both were together we were always chatting. Soon, she became a very big part of my life and it was like I felt incomplete without her. She was like everything to me. And after a few days my mom told me that I have to go to Mumbai for my aunt’s marriage. I was sad for leaving my friend but I was excited coz I love weddings. I went for the wedding and had a lot of fun but I missed Anu, she was the only person whom I missed. I came back after a week and the moment I reached home I was the first person to get ready coz I dint wanted to miss my tuition coz I dint wanted to miss the chance to meet Anu. I washed my hair at that time even thou I knew that it will make me late for tuition but still I did and so I went to tuition with my hair open. Today I left alone for the tuition coz my bro had already left before me and Anu dint knew that I am back. I reached the tuition and opened the door and there was my bro’s class sitting and I pushed my bro from behind and said hi to him and coz of my pushing him he feel on floor and I laughed and said see you later and went towards the room where I had my class. And I opened the door and my hair flew coz of the wind and I had a smile on my face which made me look cute and all the eyes were on me. I went inside the room after standing at the door for a minute. I said Hi! to everyone and then I just started to walk toward my seat but then I noticed that there was another girl sitting at my place. I remembered that she used to be in my tuition in 9^th grade, her name is Deepika. Well, she used to be very irritating at that time but now she seemed to be changed. I could not find a place to sit I felt like she was steeling everything from me. When we had the break I went and stood next to Anu and tried to talk to her. And then everyone started saying to me that Deepika is going out with Gautam. He was trying to go out with me but I was not much interested in him before I went to Mumbai and now after hearing this I said “I don’t care about it.” I tried to talk to Anu but Deepika was continuously talking to Anu and I felt bad. I don’t know why Anu was not talking to me I don’t know what happened at the tuition when I was not there. After that day, I and Anu rarely used to talk to each other. And then Anu became a good friend of Deepika. It was like I lost everything in my life. My life was incomplete without her. I had lost myself the girl who I used to be a happy-go-lucky nature one. I hardly used to talk to anyone at that time and I just used to cry. Now I dint had interest in anything I dint feel like studying also and I started getting low in studies. My score which used to be like 20/20 became like 12/20 or sometimes less than that. My parents started scolding me which never used to happen it was like everything was taken away from me coz of Deepika. And then one day at tuition I started teasing Deepika coz I felt bad that she stole everything from me. And I called her sister-in-law coz one of the guys over there liked her and I treated all the guys there as my bro. And ya when I started hanging around with Varun she was the one who used to tease me the most. And after the tuition we argued outside and I felt like saying all the abuses and curse her in front of everyone and then she said “you are a low class girl trying to act like a high class girl” and after that when I said all trash to her Anu supported her but not me and that day I had lost Anu completely I just told all this to my bro and no one else my life was shattered in just few seconds. I said many things to Deepika at that time but I was not even able to say a word for Anu I could not even say that Anu how can you just go against me without even telling me what I did I wanted to cry over there but I did not wanted to show Deepika that I was weak at that time because my strength, Anu was supporting her while Pallavi was on both sides so I dint said anything to her coz she was trying to be fair on both sides. I was in depression. I acted like I was normal in front of everyone but most of the times I used to stay alone and everybody at my home used to think that I am studying in my room while I used to be crying. I tried to get that happy-go-lucky Meha back in my life but it was hard to do. Then I changed a bit and tried to stay happy without friends I dint made friends with anyone else after that coz I could not control myself by losing someone again. And then one day, after the tuition we all were going back home and that day the only girls at tuition were I and Anu. And while going back home I just asked her what did I do wrong that you left me all alone? And she dint replied to me and then I asked her “Can we be friends again?” and she said “we were friends and we can be friends but now I cant have that old thing again with you.” And when I heard this tears came out of my eyes I tried to hide them from her but could not and she was like stop crying why are you crying. I was just wondering what is the reason that she said this to me. And then she said “yes we can be friends but I don’t want to talk about old things now we will have a new start” I agreed. And she said that she had promised Pallavi that she will be going to her house and asked me to accompany her I did and we talked all the way to her house and while we were coming back. I felt better but not really good. And then we became friends like we used to be and then when we both became best friends again Deepika stopped talking to her and Anu used to say I understand why she is not talking to you but I don’t understand why is she not talking to me. But I knew the reason and I never said that to Anu and the reason was that Deepika dint wanted me to have any friends coz when I met her in 9^th grade we both dint had someone who could be called a best friend and now I had one and she dint and so she stole everything from me and now when I have it back she is ignoring them. I always knew that this would happen if Deepika will ever come in my life. But then I and Anu decided that we won’t worry about anyone else except for each other. We were friends again and we both were happy we guys used to talk to each other for a long time and then came our board exams and we both used to study together not by sitting in front of each other but on phone we guys used to be on phone for several hours discussing our answers and every day after the exam we used to discuss the answers. We used to have fun while studying. Well people say that friends separate in vacations but we both used to talk everyday even in our vacations and then my bro, sis and aunt left India and went to Canada and I used to feel lonely without them and I used to remember them and cry I dint talked to anyone except for Anu those days. And then after a few weeks I felt better and then I came back to my life and used to talk to everyone but even a mention of my bro or sis used to make me cry. And then was the biggest shock of my life for me I was supposed to leave India and stay in USA. I did not wanted to leave India I got scared of losing my friend once again but that is what we call destiny I had to leave India and the biggest thing which hurts me is that I could not meet Anu before leaving India and I don’t have any contact information about her. She is still somewhere in me. She is still a part of me. In my life no one can take her place. I don’t know whether she still remembers me or not but I can never forget her. Never. I still have many things to tell to her. I am just waiting for a chance to meet her or to talk to her. She is that pretty angel in my life who just fills my life with joy.

Message for Anu: - Hey, Anu wherever you are I am still waiting for you and I am trying my best to get in contact with you. I will never be able to express my feelings for you when I am talking to you but ya I can write all of it and I am not afraid of anything. Babes for me you are just everything my friend, sister, brother, mom, and dad whatever you wanna call yourself for me. And ya I am always there for you whenever, wherever, whatever the case is just tell me once that you need me and I am there for you. Anything for you sis. Anu please if we meet each other again or if in any case you read this then please try to stay in touch with me. Even if I am seven seas away from you I will call you or mail which ever will be good for you and please don’t leave me alone again I am waiting for you since a long time. You might be thinking that I have forgotten but I have not and I never will. Please come back to my life Anu. Please. I just hope that at this time you don’t have any problems in your life when we both can’t share our life with each other. I can’t live without you sis.

I Love You!! I Miss You!!

Just for Anu

With

Lots of Luv, Hugs n Kisses:-

Meha